"Let My Heart Defeat My Mind"

Alright, I have taken the time to get over myself and my neediness. People piss me off with their inherent stupidity, what else is new?

But that's not the big thing on my mind at the moment.

All I remember about the dream was that I am going to get on a flight to Korea (I think) for some big important school or audition or job. Anyway, the flight is the last leg of the trip, going over the ocean, but I am in the process of getting to that flight from my previous one. The way to get to that flight is hard to remember, but I vaguely remember it feeling like one of those inflatable playgrounds with a slide we had to take to reach the jetway. And I am talking to a guy (who I am assuming was cute) about going  to wherever it is we're heading...then I wake up and forget all the details.

Now, since lately I've been pretty into dream interpretation in order to understand what one's brain is trying to comprehend, I looked up the major symbols I could remember:

transferring planes- important transitional phase taking you away from your intended path to new heights and recognition
Korea- going back to my roots, something I grew up with
ocean (going over it)- newfound freedom and independence
slide (combining "slide" with "waterslide")- instability or loss of control, being carried away by your emotions
the guy- aspects of your character which are assertive, rational, or aggressive, aspects which you may need to incorporate into your own character

If I put all that together to the best of my ability, I come up with: I am approaching a phase in my life where I will have to make  a decision about going back to part of my life that I grew up with and left. This decision could possibly lead me to a good place in my life, but I'm being resistant to the idea, feeling very out of control about making this decision, and I should be more rational and assertive in making up my mind.

I'm not thrilled about this idea because, if it is indicating what I think it is, I am VERY resistant to making this decision. It is not a road I feel I am ready, or even able, to go down; getting to the point where I could go down the road this decision will lead to will be very hard and painful, and most likely expensive for my family.

It feels like everywhere I turn, the world is screaming at me to go on, make this choice, it's the right one for you and your future, and I just wan to be a petulant child and scream back "NO!!!" But I think that might be heresy or blasphemy or some other -y that will mean God won't leave me alone until I say "yes".