"Let Your Dreaming Be Your Guide"

I love how weird my dreams are. Seriously, they just prove exactly how twisted my mind is.

Last night, I was dreaming that I was in some reality show that slightly resembled The Hunger Games...minus the actual dying and the funky romance and the crazy politics. Although, all of that could have been in there and I just forgot. But I think we either faked the deaths or it was a really death-like elimination.

Anyway, I was in this show, and while I don't remember much of it--my roommate's alarm went off early this morning, I thought it was Friday and actually got up--I know that I was "killed off" around the fifth episode of the show; as I was watched the episodes later, I was thinking that maybe the show would make me famous because my screen presence (and death scene) was amazing.

I have a bit of an ego when it comes to acting, so sue me.

Interpretation, to the best of my ability, is as follows:

reality show: life is under scrutiny; need a reality check
Hunger Games: feeling unfulfilled and challenged in life
being on TV: want to broadcast something to the world, a desire to express self; or, trying to be more objective about life
faked death: looking for a new start in life
five: five senses and sensitivity; change in path

>>>>I feel as though my life is under constant scrutiny by those around me and I am challenged by what it is they expect me to do. I feel as though I am expected to do certain things and be a certain way, when all I want to do is show everyone exactly who I really am. But I don't do that, and I give up and stop trying to challenge myself and continue on by ignoring certain aspects of my life. I need to be more sensitive to what I want and who I am, but shouting to the rooftops that I'm starting my life over isn't the way to do it.<<<<

I knew I was a twisted person; my subconscious used The Hunger Games to give me a reality check.