So, I've decided to take a church class twice a week. I wasn't too sure about it, what with my whole "non-religiousness" thing going on, but the two classes I've been to so far are starting to sway me. In the first class, we talked about choices and being held accountable for the things we've done, but how we can be forgiven. Today, we talked about prayer and how important it is for spiritual growth. Both topics were things that I need to work on...a lot.
Today was particularly interesting for me because we talked about how our sins essentially build a wall between us and the Lord so that His replies to our prayers, and that makes it hard for us to hear Him. The stones which make up the wall, our sins, can be speaking badly of others, or lying, or something as simple as not liking someone, and the only way to take those stones down is to pray that God will help us. One of the examples we talked about was praying to like a person, and I started thinking of people in my life who I don't like. It wasn't a happy thought. I don't like my dad; I don't like my older brother, Ben; I don't like my ex-boyfriend, Michael...is anyone else noticing the pattern here?
They're all guys.
I always knew I had issues with guys; they're the ones who seem to hurt me the most. And now I am supposed to pray that I like them, pray that I will eventually forgive them...forgive myself.
Great....
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